All My Thoughts

All My Thoughts - Dec 02.21

- -  --  --   dear abuser; What you do for only you to live . . . . . Then only you get to see as you live . . . Then do you live? If nobody sees???? you abuse to not live even of you;   - -  --  --   I can grow and become more ; ; ; What the fck is your excuse with all your benefits you have over me   - -  --  --   Are you human or are you not Maybe that is the only question left to bother to ask...

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All My Thoughts - Dec 01.21

how does anybody even trust anybody????? Is that what I am supposed to feel? Is that what you feel?  to want?  and only????  you only want to feel like that ? on purpose? by your choice????? Is that why maybe I can't understand the worlds that exist in the one we all share??? because for me to only want to feel like you , , , , i would be so sad to even to want to feel ; ; ;  ahhhhhh, , , is that it ???? why you don't want to feel????? because you think you can't???? oh...

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All My Thoughts - Nov 30.21 part 3

IF I AM A SLAVE TO STILL BE IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT WORLD THEN I CAN DREAM   is that what I am supposed to do? just get mad instead like you? Or to give up and just breathe - - even still??? that is not what I dream for me then I wouldn't be me,  I wouldn't get to be me , again -   I can't understand you?  and you can't understand me - -    Is the world then now just done? over?  and no body wants to fight - -  and to fight for each other - -...

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All My Thoughts - Nov 30.21 part 2

And then what do I know - - - My father raised me to not see what is real - - Is even; ; ; is this real? Or is this just processing till I find out what is??? Or will I? if I keep trying? Is that enough? To learn about me and what I can be ? Or because this world - - even if I can get out - - there is always more shit - - Or is that the test to wanting to live ? - - - - - Then you always have to...

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All My Thoughts - Nov 30.21

And now when I cry – I cry for me - - - -because I loved myself enough to first see that dave was hurting me , but also to see how he was hurting me , To try and wrap your brain around first before all of that - - -is - - - IS dave hurting me ? – to think that in the first place - - - just hurts your head - - lol - - - and then you realize - - - it is real - - - this is what is happening -...

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