All My Thoughts - Nov 30.21 part 2

And then what do I know - - -

My father raised me to not see what is real - -

Is even; ; ; is this real? Or is this just processing till I find out what is???

Or will I? if I keep trying? Is that enough? To learn about me and what I can be ?

Or because this world - - even if I can get out - - there is always more shit - -

Or is that the test to wanting to live ? - - - - -

Then you always have to be tested   - - - right? !

Does that mean then that you now live?

Or part  - - because I am now trying - - - and even if I don’t succeed - - - I feel

That I did- - -

So, , , what is???

What is the purpose to life????

Is it to abuse only be abused yourself???

Is that all that you have that you can to hope for ?

Is that your hope??

Or think that it is  - - - or what then is a want????

Because if we all want different things - - - - how can we all want???

And then get to receive???

 

So,, am I still so very far behind ?????

And I am sorry  - - to myself - - -

For letting it be so - - -

Now that I know or am starting - - - -

That’s why - - -I can’t believe

What everyone else thinks of

LIFE

If I am all alone in mine


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