Stand At Least For Your Own Sister

They say we have the right to say no

So then they take that away and still say we have that right

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When you lie, manipulate to a woman so you can get sex as your only objective – that is rape –

To lie to her mind and say things you know she wants to hear that would then allow you to her -  - that is rape and rape of the body and mind

-what you are trying to do to a whole race of humanity - - - - you are only one part of humanity - - -we are the other

And as equal to life and to what life means - - - -therefore what fckin right do you have over me just because you are afraid and thus gave everyone fear - - that is how you lead by fear instead of real power - - - the power to choose to want to live and to live beyond, beyond where we started from  , , , , ,, that is free will and in turn what it does – gives strength- gives yourself love - - -the will to want to be more,  to be more than what you can only see - - - -

To be more; ; ;  than just your body parts

To Be More Than Just Yourself !!!!!

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It’s funny - - when something terrible happens how people can act as one to help each other to get through the disaster - - -but then after - - - you call the same person that helped you of slurs or of gender bias - - - - - -- what the fck is wrong is everyone - - ???

We are all the same and we are all doomed - - - if we don’t change - - - if we don’t start to share  - - -and share about the crimes that one is doing to another that is done in the name of money or greed - - - --

That is not life and is not for me - - - -if that is all you want to be - - - -then that makes sense then that you would only see then another as only as you then - -- to be full of hate as my father and dave - - - I am sorry that you thought of your life as not worth more , , ,for you to only be what you could only do - - - as your father before you - - - and only abuse

It is a weak man that has to abuse - - -it is a weak man that has to manipulate for sex

My body, my mind , my brain – are all mine - - - - and not for you to abuse - - - whether I can see or not what harm you do and do to me - - - you do not get off - - - -scott free - - - like your trying only to make us believe and to not stand for ourselves to have life - - - - and then you dare hold your head high assholes only those that are - - no more - - - - - - -

All the shame that you made me feel and only - - - - - - - - - - - -- how fckin dare you - - - - and then you want sympathy of what you do - - - and we do - - - but not for reasons that you could ever understand only could if you were a man

One chance one shot - - - that is all everyone gets - - - -

One chance one shot - - - and then the government even takes that away from us

- by allowing men to abuse women - - - - in every aspect of our lives like WTF

 

It’s not me that failed - - - it is you that failed me and in every humanly way possible

 

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Because officers don’t care in the first place the ones that don't

As they also make and follow which rules

depends on their values - - - as those we see and do not.

But we can then see - - - by actions that are not and only more of the same to only degrade

To wear any uniform the uniform better be first and your biases last or do not wear any uniform to pretend of what you are not because only pretend can you do and only for so long and a disgrace you are and to all of those that wear the uniform right and with the honor it is to be for

so a union will protect an asshole to keep his job when he shouldn't have - - - who is protecting those that he abused on the job and in his home every night where he goes back to - - -to show who he really is - - - for then he is biases first and family even last and then to transfer his shit to other officers and shame those he things he has the right to but has none and yet no one there even stands against them - - - so how in the fck can an ordinary human get any help

 

An officer to me did say - - you made your bed now lay in it - - -

I was so stunned by what he said to me - - I just stalled as I couldn’t believe what was said to me and in front of my husband - - - to make me see that I was less and of no importance and that no one would care about me - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - --

That is what an officer did to me - - - - - - - when I needed help from a man that said he loved me as he was trying to harm me , , , ,

I didn’t even realize the call made it through - - - - three days after we were married now property I am and only and only seen as also by men in uniform that are supposed to protect me too - - - but only see me as - - -

A choice that was made even though I never did but by their rules by which we know none of - - - - - I was young, around 21 - - and could not see what was happening around me

 

As I am writing this - - -- am I more now understanding what they did  - - - - to me - - - to make me from me - - - because assholes with dics they are and to me they did - - - even though they had no right and still do not - - - - - I am stronger - - - and know I can see more - - - - of what you did when you did what you did to me - - - - rape of ten thousand men and their minds as one - - - -as to the degradation of a whole race - - - of women and to make good men afraid to stand up , , and to only a fckin bully you are

 

The call went through to 911,

A knock at the door - - - my husband stops choking me to go look - - -

And then - - I knew - - - I wasn’t gonna get any help  - - - it was a feeling that came upon me to feel - - - and I didn’t understand it - - -but I knew I should be afraid - - - because of what the officer said to me and to keep me afraid - - - - - - - and now not only am I afraid of my husband and cannot say but also more men surrounding me and telling me I am wrong

then the officer asking me in front of my husband - - - do you really want to press charges – do you really want to do that - - - -  - -and in a way that was so degrading for me to feel so more now afraid because my husband too is watching me - - - -and so is now a cop who instead of protecting me - - - is too harming me because a woman I am and of no rights to be seen around them that are in front of me - - -

I didn’t realize then and not till now - - - really what was happening - - - and to all women - - - - because of asshole men with dics only and no brains in their minds can they not be - - - -

An officer - - - - there gone is my trust - - - but yet I still call them - -  yet again - - - and the results are the same - - - - - this time - - - mobile crisis - - - - - - - - two days after the first - - - he shot at me and missed - - - and into the floor it went –he was able to carry firearms my husband , , , add that to all my fears - - -

- the only thing that saved me was he was too drunk to see where I stood and that only is what saved me - - - -as those that came - - - mobile crisis - - - -is that what they only do - - - - protect each other - - - protect other men - - - - - - just as the officers? 

 I knew after that as my husband even said - - I am his now- - -I had to get away - - but how - - - - I can’t tell anyone - - - and no one is there to help me - - - - then I have to now tell my family what he did to me - - - - - - - and I already knew that my father was an ass - - but did not realize the total length to that - - - \

It was weird - - like he didn’t care about what happened to me but did to my kids - - - so I thought that was alright - - - at least he cared about my children I thought - - - - - - -how wrong I was so much pain and misery. . . . . . . . . . . .

So much pain and misery - - -all because I was born with no dic and a dic only I did not want to be or to only see or to only have for me and for my family for my children - - - - - - - -

The mistakes women make we pay for forever  - - - -no mistakes a man makes only unless he is caught

 

Maybe I am learning as I write this - - - -that the world really is a shitty place and is more so if no dic you embrace

But I guess as I am learning too - - - why in the fck do we take this shit - - - we are so much stronger than any man that can only thing with his pants and if that is all that you can be - - - primitive as shit - - - fck off and start learning how it is that the world is now - - - - - - does not revolve around only dics

I am a woman and hear me meow - lol- - my way - - my style - - for all to live and to be free and to be able to live lifes as we want too - - -free from your narrow one view that is of no view

- if more for yourself is what you want to do and dream

 

Respect or fck off

p.s. not all men that wear a uniform are assholes that is not what is said - just as in everything a few assholes ruin it for everyone else - -

- and those that are , abusers of others lives - - - -no matter where they are - - - - ones you put up with - - - while they abuse your sisters and friends - - -- to never be and to never be the same again - - - - and all because - - - - you didn’t have your balls either - - - - - -- so we all have been weak and mean to each other - - - - and it has to stop - - - - or it all will stop - - - - and no one wins because the world can never be to one/won

 

When they have those who is the sexiest person surveys - - - firemen / firewomen - - - - should be all included on that because of what they do - -and all their bills should be paid - - - how a human can self sacrifice themselves - - - - to go into a fire , , , to help a stranger - - - - how we all forget how the character of a fireman/firewoman - - - - still exists - - - - and how we forget to be more of the same - - - - at least to learn even for ourselves - - - - -- - - 

to learn that no matter what - - - - how hot the fire is- - - - - there are only two things one can do - - - and which is everything in life - - - - - to face your fears or be engulfed by them. To believe that you can do anything and be anyone - - - - there is no room for fear - - - not for yourself !!

 

 

- we all share the one world that we all share to live on - - - - -

- we all need to play our parts that we all need to play to the one world that we all share and are all a part of

-we all need to play our one parts that we all share - - - or our part will never get shared and will never be a part of - - - - the one world that we all share

 

 

I guess I am naïve - - - because I couldn't I guess want to believe or maybe I couldn't

and is still hard too - - - to believe that this is all that these powerful men could only do with their power of knowing they can control their own life and of others - - - - - -  to rule by fear - - - - - is to not really rule anything - - - - - - because it is fear that wins that race and everyone lived for nothing

and to think of only for the moment at hand to only be the best moment you can have - - - - - that is only then how small men that can only think of one small narrow view to only have and only see - - - - - when you know there are more possibilities of even better what is and right now ; than not 

only an abuser needs fear to survive - - - - to keep their secrets is the fear they put inside of you - - - ; ; or make you feel their shame

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To start to think also then means - - - what do you want to be

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What can you be

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What do you want to be to choose now

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What do you want to achieve

That will have lasting results

That is what I want for me now.

 Not a dog am I yours dave - -

I am no one’s slave

And trying not to be

Even of my own of what you now made me - - -  - - -  - - -

 

to be a slave and not even know it is what my father and dave did to me and took my life from me all because they thought they had the right because I would never figure out - - - - what they did to me - - - - - - abuse, manipulation, rape - - - of all of me - - - - of my body my mind and my brain - - - - - - - to make me not see - - - - how they were harming me - - - - - crimes done unto me for the only reason because I was a girl and a man they could not be , ,

to advance the human race - - - - to evolve - - - to find answers of why and how do we exist - - - 

to be more - - to want more - - - to live ; ; ; ; I am not just a hole for your dic

 


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