To Only Breathe and Not Live

When you are abused you also feel stupid

What I mean is

If I can’t understand something - - I then have to like punish myself for not knowing - - -

I have to feel bad about not understanding it - - - -

I have to then question me - - - -

That is what abuse does - - in its hidden form

How a father can create abuse to his child - - - - in the form of mental anguish - - -and to do it on purpose - - - so then to create a world for him - - - as master not father - - -

And he holds his head high - - - while he has made me not too for mine

What an asshole to every degree - - - if you abuse your family

 

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How an army operates - - -with abuse

And you are saluting a bigger loser than you - - - - that is what you earn -  - your stripes for

That’s why they don’t want you questioning authority - - of higher than you - - - so they can abuse their power

And if you do question it – court marshaled you are, shown as a traitor, made to not be listened, if ever did you speak, all because an asshole you are not

 

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If you see something incredible or you something you can’t explain - - - people also differ in how they react to the same things as well - - - - -

What I mean is - - -

Some people will just say what they saw with no consequence as to thinking ahead for any bad results -  - some people- - will tell just a friend and put maybe a bit of a spin on it so they don’t seem like it is for real on case their friend thinks they’re weird and that is strange - -

Some people- - - - will even deny what they saw to themselves  - - - -and say it never happened - - - it was never real

- some people – will not deny what happened but will try to not make it real - - - like the use of drugs or booze

Some people – some people will deny seeing it at all if asked about it even though they believe they did –

Some people - - maybe can never come to terms - - - - - - - -

- some people will question their own mind over and over again - - did I ? did I not?

Some people - -- will even see and not even know of what they saw

Some people - -  not even know what that was and didn’t even see to understand it as, as to understand what it was- - -

-some people - - understand what they saw but fail to see the different degrees because they can only see as they can see - - to only one degree if not taught to see of more

Some people will question what they see and want to learn more

-some people can learn of understanding of different degrees and then to apply only for theirs for only their degree – for only them to achieve

Some people can see how it can be if all combined our thoughts and we share; the only way to evolve - - - is through knowledge and of that knowledge to keep learning that, that knowledge isn’t to be kept for only one to have

And to me that also means - - - because we are all one as individuals and all as one as a race - - - as we all seem to play a part not only in our own lives our minds as they develop - - - but also how that correlates and multiplies to more and more of constant changing and adding of more and more possibilities every day and every minute and every moment under the sun  - - - - because we all interact and play a part of all the lives that we see  - - - -that is what we are doing when we are existing and doing - - - everytime we say a hello - - or a fck you - - - we have thus changed every moment from that to now then the next !!! –lol - - so - - - why have more of shitty ones than rather those of love - - and at least of love for yourself !!!!!!!!

This is what you are doing when you make a decision in your life and of every one –every decision you make; ; ;  - - - - - it does effect the next for you and so on - - - - - - but do not forget - - - what you do affects the next

And also of the next to surpass - - - - - - -what will you leave for them to see - -

 

Would you believe this thought started as a thought about what people believe - - as to aliens or not - - lol - - see - - fun thoughts –lol—make life fun - - - and in everything!!!!!!!

A slave I am not - - - and never to you - - - - - -

A slave I am not and now not to me!!

Lol- - lol - - trying - - lol - - it is very hard - - - sometimes - - -to not get so sad at how much time dave stole from my own life to live as how I want and not for just for him to get his dic wet - - - what a loser - - - lol- lol- -

How he had to also waste so much of his to waste mine - - - - - - - - - -

How fckin stupid is that

 

To live a life and not learn anything - - to only do what your father tells you too - - - yeh - - loserrrrrrrrrrr

And he tells you you are abusing us while the whole time he doesn’t see how he abused his own son to waste his life for nothing but only ass - - - - - and then to never see more you could have had - - - if only you could have been as strong as me - - - - - - lol - - losers that abuse - - - - -- I am stronger than you - - - -- it is you weaker than me because you have to lie to you and you then do not get to be - - - to exist - - - to live - - to really feel inside of you that it is that you are - - - - - because if you did - - -because if that is what you are - - - - you would never be sad only happy - - - -- - that I know is a rule of life

To not be happy means then you are not living how you need to live

And it doesn’t matter who you are - - - if you are not happy - - - then something is wrong - - and that is something of how you live

Be more if you want more

Be less if you don’t want more

 

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Because of all the lies they told to only have their wants to come true and the cost of all others - - - now everything is not the truth

How can we believe for sure what you say is true when it is you that hides the truth and says just believe what I say - - - just like a shitty father - - -do what I say

All these mens clubs secret and private - - - now are all worthless just as those before them to conceal and hide so that just they get what they want out of life - - - - -

Assholes that abuse

And they are the ones that are controlling you and of course me- - - - to not be to not exist only good enough - - -

As they had written for us - - - - -psychology 101 - - - -and you do not even have to read between the lines - - -they say right out front - - - but only to see if you can

To stay alive now you are alive - - you must see more than just for you as well - - -see what a loser abuse only wants to excel at - - -but also their fears - - - because they too have fears just as they gave to us - - an abuser gave to them - - - - -

So if a fear you have - - because a fear can only be taught - - - - - then abused at some point you have to been and are - - - -

Because we don’t see or realize sometimes our actions or why we do what we do - - - that is a bif portion of how to abuse

And to abuse the next and the next and more and by more , , as everyone learns and does not - - -we still proceed - - - as life - - - either only breathing - - or playing our part - - - - - even though maybe playing our part we do not see - - -that we haven’t even begun  too - - - - not until we see and understand - - - YOU - - -yourself  , , as much as you can - - - -

Then they teach us this lousy shit in school to only be and to only have while their lives are already better than ours - - -- because of the knowledge of their fathers - - - that life is the most important thing to have - - - --

But not at the cost to others - - -

Because if you believe that as an abuser does - - - - then that is my right then to do to you what you did to me - - - and you can’t say a fckin thing - - - because you are all of shit - - - and under my shoes you now are to me - - - - and I am living for me

 

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A man’s ego and his dic

A psychology account of and to what abuse is and to what it really does and to the after effects of generations past and future - - for how they can live

 

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Everything is relative – it depends on just where you are - - how you can see - - how you are let to view - - -everything we do – is learnt

 

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Be all the things you want to be - - for you - - not for some guy or whatever abuse shit - - -

See you in your life !!!

Be sexy, be fun, be creative , laugh , smile , flirt – enjoy - - -

That too – that is what life is about -!!

 

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See your own mind and what it can do

An abuser needs you to be weak - - -so then they can abuse you

So be strong for you and tell a loser abuser to fck off

Your life is not to waste

 

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What does life mean to you

Who will you say you are

Who is you

Will you take a chance on you

To live for you

 

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Is that what it is

Men hiding what they do - - unless someone says - - stands

 

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A father that abuses doesn’t love

And can only teach of the same

Where was my love

That you had for only yourself

Where was my love

To explore this life this life of mine for me to see

To live with my happiness for me to live !!----------------------

My happiness for me is what I want to see - - - - - --------------------

Not you not your face over me

Not your hate that you can only keep - - - -------------------------

Where was my love for me

Where was my father’s love - - - -+

That destroyed me my dreams within me

 

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To navigate through this life

Take your hands off me - - - I am in control of me

 

 

Where was my love

To show me how

 

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To navigate through this life

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The best that I can how !! - - - ---------------

 

To live as I want - - - - - ------------------

Above only what you can only see

The best that you cannot be

 

 

And to see me in my life

With now my love for me and love for you

To now all have!!!-------------------------------

 

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To be lied too – over and over - - - -what does that do to the brain then to the mind

How would you like it if someone did to you - - - - -what you did to me - - - and then to see then to feel - - - - as me

Fck you and your abuse over me - - - and over anyone else that I can see and can see not - - - -

Fck you for not being worth a man - - - and only part - - - and now the part you play is the part of monster - - - - that you only want and can only have

Fck you for being so sad and pathetic - - - and using your knowledge only because you are before me - - - to use against me for you only to see - - - fck you for being only weak

That is what I see and feel

And what I want - - - is more for me and more for you than what they only give us and for us to be so thankful - - - - fck you - - - then let’s see how you like it - - - - to be born to be only of less and to only breathe - - - -- when there is more to life that you have kept from me - - - - because only an ass you can only be - - - you have no right to abuse my life - - - -even though you think you might - - - otherwise that too then is only for you - - to only breathe and to live without life - -


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