Ahhh shit - - - I keep doing that- - - don’t I - - - forgetting to not stay myself in one narrow view - - - - to forgive myself and to move on - - - -with my journey now that I can see - - - -
But it is hard for a number of reasons - - --
Because of the deliberate abuse by my father and dave to be able then to take advantage of me - - - because no thoughts did I have - - - I could not see - - - - - - how unloved it was that was me
But to write this all out - - - - it is very hard to do - - - - -and then to not want to stay only in that shit is easy - - - - - because I don’t want to - - - but what is hard - - - - is remembering that part
And it’s like I have to - - - - - or would like to - - - - - before every word I say!!
I can feel so much more than my father or dave will never know of will never feel
Especially if they won’t even forgive themselves for being weak - - - - - -
We all have been to our selves - - - individually and as one
This is what we all need to remember - - - - to then be able to live and to live of more than you ever thought that you can dream of and be of!!!!!
Because these thoughts of love that I have can fill me up inside to feel so amazing and true - - - - true to me to love me - - - - - even if it is that love that I only seek - - - and to wish for - - - and that is fine if I am alone with that , with that of thoughts of love I wish that everyone had