SEE ME AS I SEE

“IF WE CAN THINK IT – DOES IT MAKE IT REAL?!!

And then I wonder – am I wasting my time? Even with all of this - -

To even say - -

because you sure must all know ( how the world works )– because maybe it’s just me that is abused - and this is how only I can see the world????

And then I sit and cry . . .

Because I can only wonder why I would even have a thought like that – to want to make me feel so sad about myself - - that all I can do is wonder why me - -

BECAUSE THAT IS ALL THAT I CAN SEE !!!!!!!!

 

And then I have to sit back and reflect – on all that u thought you were learning – or even if you even are - - - because maybe all along - - it is just only me - that can see - - -

BECAUSE IT IS ONLY ME THAT CAN SEE THIS - -

 

BECAUSE I HAD THAT THOUGHT –

“IF WE CAN THINK IT – DOES IT MAKE IT REAL?!!

 

now I am a little afraid – lol wow amazing thought but scary)

BECAUSE WHAT DID I JUST THINK OF? RIGHT??

What is it that I just thought of?

Holy crap - - right!!

What if that is real?!!!

What does that mean then for each of us - - how we should act??

Right?

Is that what you saw? Tell me – please –

((im gonna have to try – again – sorry –to try and back track to how I got to this point - this thought - -))

 

!! I have never thought of something so wonderful and then not –

 

Then all the pain – that is all you want me to see – but I can’t - -

BECAUSE THAT IS WHEN I DO NOT GET TO SEE (FOR ME TO BE)

Wow amazing !!

And now what ??

What will be my next thought?

And then I get so happy again!!

Its such a crazy way to feel - - to learn that you should Always love yourself!!