To Think Just More Than Me As It Is That You See Me

If someone says they love you - - it is that then should feel loved as you want to feel - - !! right – lol - - -

Maybe that is what victims of abuse , from when you are born and your father is an abuser - - -

What is it then that happens to you - - that happens that is different than if you were loved - - - --

- - - sorry - - it is so painful to even think this thought - - but I know I have to because I think it will clear up some points that you can’t understand if you don’t feel or question that you are living your life - - - because that is what it is too - -

If you were raised to see this or that and then a bit of this or only that and none of this and then you are treated so wrong on top of it all - - -above even all of that - - - -

That is what it is - - - the others parts that others feel - - -that you are not a part of - - - that you do not share - - - -

Because we only play one part in each of each others lives - - - it is to help or help not - - -

You men that abuse are so shallow and can van think of your dic only being so big - - - when in fact it is your mind that what is - - - so fckin big - - - - - and my balls are bigger than yours - - - because I can think with not only my head but also my own mind - - - that you thought you had total control of - - - fck you - - - -

That is what abuse is - - - - - it is slavery - - it is murder - - - just because I am only breathing - - - doesn’t mean that I am living - - because remember it is not - - -

It is how these assholes get away with murder of their children of women of eaker men - - - - they steal your mind from you to think of your own thoughts- - - - -

To murder someone without actually killing them and then to get to see them all qwalk about as dumb as you think that they only are - - - slaves from their own brains that you made everyone are - - - -

But know I see - - even you a slave -- - to your own abuse - - -

So fck off and get out of my brain - - my thoughts - - - you can keep your abuse your shame your less of being human - - - - I do not want no part of it - - - because - - - to only be that - - - would then now for me to be less - - -

And less I do not want to be - - -always more - - -

To thnk of wonderous thoughts for me for my self to actually enjoy and to know know that I can know enjoy what it is that I do  - - - - because before - - - not ever could I - - - nothing felt real- - - even though it was all that I knew that was - - - - I still knew or maybe I believed to much in their lies - - - and I really did always want to be loved and to believe in a life that can be good for me to make that real - - - that is all that I can think of – when I never knew I was abused - - - those were my thoughts to only have - - - was to dream only of love from a man that I have to serve the best that I can - - to make sure he is always happy - - - - and it doesn’t matter if I ever am because he is so then I am - - - - - -

I was never told I had my own life - - my own thoughts - - -my own identity that is to make me feel great not just what I know what you - - to abuse me - - wants - --

To murder my life from me and for me to not even now - - but others do - - - so is that what is the joke ??? ahhhh I asked my self this question a bit ago - - - wow - - -so neat - -- I got an answer - - - !!!!!

It is

So when abusers tell others that are abusers that is what they are doing - - - that is how they are keeping score - - -- that is how they do it - - -fckers - - -

And then to the men that don’t tell them to fck off and only hide from them to feel only their disgrace now because they didn’t take a stand - - - - and now the only ones that are - - - are the assholes  and the abusers - - - - -  otherwise - - - things would be better - - - - better for me and for you - - - - because then we would never be then abused - - - - - - - because to know and to understand how important life really is truly is - - - - and for you fcks with no brains only reproductive organs - - it is you that is obsolete - - - the world is changing - - and changing already - - from the start of the first woman to say no respect me as a human - - - to know- - - for what dave had did to me - - - all his hate that he put onto me to only feel - - - and then my father - - -and then society - - -

And we are not standing for our own thoughts of what we want for life to be - - - - because an abuser at least figured out - - - fear - - -what fear for us is - - --  but now I figured out - - - - what fear for them is

To make seem no not important to people that have nothing - - - wow - - -fck you - - - -I see that as abuse  - - - - I see how te next levels jump up and then include asshole abuser men that thought they were on the top - - - -and look at all that they did to everyone and what - - no one stands ???? like wtf - - - your part you need to play in the one world that we all share - - - is that you want to live to - - - the same equal rights to the knowledge of what life really means - - - and what it is that I can all do

I believe nothing you say anymore you abusers of power - - - - the knowledge of life is also what you thought you would never forget - - - but as your own circle of abuse - - on how it comes back to you - - - that is your blind bias - - that you think you can always tell and the best one in te land to be the one that is on the top of all to abuse  - - - - you also forget - - how can there just be one??? If there is no  one for you to abuse - - - and you think you are on the top? Remember - - - what does that mean - - your own shit back onto you - - - -

But because maybe my thoughts are all new and for me - - - and maybe I am just crazy now - - lol - - -lol - - but it doesn’t feel like it - - -- it feels like I am thinking for the very first time - - - - and would like to be able to think of more wonderful thoughts and would love to share minds to see  how farther each of us can learn and then share - - - but as for the world - - - -not for just one-  - -

That is not evolution - - - that is how we all die . . . .

And maybe there is a better way to thinking - - - - than only abusing - - - - -

Sorry - - I jumped ahead - - I hope I can put the rest in


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