To See

Not only did he abuse me my father - - but his intent was to abuse as many as possible - - to abuse each of us - - his kids - - -and then to abuse ours –and all the others in between - - - that was the goal - - -that is the goal of an abuser - - - and that is all that they can do  - - - because that is all that they can see - - - is only them - - - -

And their own one narrow view of only what one can do

Because I see more - - -more of what I can do - - - -when it is that I view - - and that I choose to view - - - and to how to be - - - and to understand how very little it really only takes to be a million times worth more than you can only be my abuser - - - - and I see your fears as you tried to make me only have - - - and now I can see and can feel - - - a world now so much better even already - - without your abuse in it

How little worth you only are my abusers - - - because you could only see to abuse - - - just like those that were doing to you - - - to only let you have their same narrow view - - but you think it is so great  - - -to abuse everyone around you even your own family - - -what assholes you only are - - -and then to tell your sons on how to be the next abusers and waste their lives just as you see that you have wasted yours and now is too late for you - - -but as an abuser - - you can’t abuse alone - - because you are assholes and have to pretend to others to be like you or those that you abuse - - if they become to feel nothing like you are then your prize to be had - - for as long as you can hold onto that - - - because that is all that you have now - - and nothing more - - -you fck assholes that abuse - - - -and then you tell your sons to abuse women - - - and abused women tell their daughters to be good wives and that is all for your life to be - - - -fck all that - - - - -assholes that want the world to be worthless just like them - - - that is what it is - - - losers that think they have control of everyone else - - - because no one else will stand - - - and to just stand for themselves and their own right to life and for it not to be abused by a man that can only think with his limp dic- - - you all should be ashamed - - -

You know did to us - - - and now the whole world repeats –and generations have past - - -

And everyone now in the lands  - - are all asses - - -we all are everyone

Because we can’t see more than what only we have only been taught or can know only feel - - - that to think of in only one narrow view is also then to think small  - - -- so - - - - - -  -- - if you are an abuser - - - - right assholes - - - - you would never think that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then that would mean you are of very small minded - - - and therefore easy to abuse

How come I can see this and you can’t - - -- oh yes - - -your blind confirmation bias - - - you’re the top - - -right - - - how can you be if you are the one thinking that -- - - like duh - - lol - - -right - -- if I wanted to be only an asshole - - - I would have to always be worried about someone playing me as I am to them - - so on guard you are all the time - - - - how is that then from happiness to want to have that to then - - - how come so much stress - - - - that is what you are feelings so much more now and not even happy - - -no  one is - - - because no one wants to take the chance on themselves - - - that they might feel - - - -feel something nice for themselves to feel in your own hearts - - - that is so special to you and to you only and how you can share all that love - - - - -because you feel so aware - - - so aware that life is to be of more  - - not of less - - - not for less for anything and for at any time - !!!!!lol – lol - - -to be sad - - -is to be sad when it is that you are alive - - and now that you know that you are alive - - be alive - - do things - - feel good - - - live and do things that make you feel that it what that it is that you want to share - - - with the rest of the world - - - - -

because that is what we do when we all communicate with each other - - - -that is what we are doing - - - we are sharing - - - -

So we are sharing already and we don’t even really see that as that as how important and powerful that really means to understand - - as for how I can feel anyways - - that so amazing - - -to wow - - to not only feel like a dog for a man to think all you are worth is for his limp dink. 

My brain my mind my body my one equal chance to living life one as the same as you - - - what right do you have to take mine from me and for only you to see - - - -

You have no right to turn a human into a dog because you held the power of knowledge away from her

Fck you all you pieces of shit that abuse and abuse their own families their own blood - - how stupid do you have to be - - - to hurt your own kids - - - they are your future ?????? how stupid are you to hurt your own bloodline to stop being , forever  , because all you could do is think with your dic , while everyone else - - -

So afraid and that pisses me off too - - - -because how can I live if you don’t - - - and how can you if I don’t - - - if I don’t be brave and say - - - and keep no more their secrets of abuse that was done unto me - - -on purpose , with intent , to take my life from me - - -and that they also thought that I would never see - - - - - that it then would mean they would never have to repent

 

It takes a big man to be nothing to anyone – because nothing you can mean to anyone otherwise that means you would have abused you if you had the chance too - - - to care means not in control of your life the abuser

And for us - - those that love - - -to not care - - - that is us not being alive - - - -we need to feel , to feel to be alive - - - to touch - - to be touched - - - to grow and explore and to be so happy inside of yourself because as you know if you can feel like that - - - that you already know that you are supposed to love yourself !!!!!! these are things that are kept from you to never feel - - - otherwise if you start to feel for yourself and look in your own mirror - - - and be honest with yourself when you look - - - it’s weird too but it feels so right - - - like you will feel - -

Huh - - how come I never realized that - - or thought of that - - -or why would I have stayed with such as ass - - - -when you don’t look in the mirror and see only what they want you to see when you look - - because you don’t really look - - not when you look in the mirror - - -not really every day - - you look to get ready for the day or whatever - - - but you never really stop to stare at yourself - - and take a few moments - - just for yourself - - - to look at you and how is that that you look and feel - - - why do you not feel happy? Don’t you want to be happy? All these questions came to my mind - - - and I was scared and afraid - - -but then I kept looking at me to see me - - - -and not just only what everyone only wanted and only I could see as me as - - - - but to see me - -  for me - - - and to want to see - - even more of me – and it was hard not to give up - - - and to keep looking at me and not being sad at me but more questioning me - - - - -

But when I figured out what dave was doing to me - - - it broke my brain I think - - lol - - -lol - - - I got so sad - - - but then no questions would come to my mind - - - - only that dave did this to me on purpose - - that he intended to abuse me and thus then rape me - - - -over and over and as long as he could - - -

How many of you did dave tell to about the things that he got to do to me - - - - how you abusers sure share your stories of how get your tail - - - 

So - - your intent is clear - - - - abuse with intent to harm and to rape - - - and to take all your dreams away

To hide behind your abuse when you make us lie for you - - to keep your secrets of what you do - -because if I had my free will, my choice to be with you dave or not - - - my choice would be to run - - -run far away from you – as I did with my first thought - -

- - also a form of captivity is also what you did as you also kept me and to only keep as to cause harm also onto me - - less than a dog- - - to only breathe - - -

To be not also educated - - - -that is also how it is then you that are easier to grab - - -to start to be abused on - - -

To not think to share to think on how to improve peoples’ lives - - - to me - - - I wonder if we would start now - - - how far can we get - - - - for even me to see - - - - that lives are now changed forever in this world - - - because I dared to just dream - - - - and share that dream - - -for everyone to have

Sorry , it took me a bit to come to some kind of terms with realizing that my father abused me to also then abuse my children - - - it hurts so much - - - and it hurts more because , I wish I would have been stronger for  them , and I wasn’t - - -

Even though know I now I shouldn’t feel that - - -I always still always forever will

So please be strong for your children - - - they depend on you to help them do right

Fathers don’t tell your sons to abuse women – Mothers don’t tell your daughters to be abused by men

Because my father knew I wouldn’t let him abuse by children - - he had to figure out another way to abuse them - - a different way than what he did to my sisters’ - - - just as her abuse was different than mine - - but the weird thing is - - - it is harder to see for yourself - - - when you are abused like her rather than me - - - for me - - it is clear the damage he did and how it is all unfolding as to how he had too - - to do what he wanted to do to me - - to harm me physically and mentally - - - my sister - - was just mentally. My mother - - physically and mentally - - and as she was the first - - of his own now new family to create and destroy - - - but guaranteed - - - how many more he abused to have his way to get his dic wet - - - - and also to men - - I can see how he controlled by fear - - and especially where he worked for 35 years - - abusing all around him - - - my father - - such a great abuser of all that he came across - - -that is his legacy of fear that he wanted to live and he did - - - at the cost to all others to not be able to - - -

Until now - - -

Stand or never do - - -

The choice is up to you - - - and can only be made by you to see - - -

To see you!!!

Don’t let another’s fear and abuse keep you from living - - that is what they can only do to you – they are cowards and fear what you would do if you would be to stand your ground for your life to live - - not of their piss and shit they only have for you - - sent it back to them - - their fear their hate - - -it is theirs not yours - - -

How dare you abuse me from seeing my life from me - - - fck you

what you do to me - - do I then get to do that to you? Because you must think it is alright to do - - -fckin loser assholes of abuse - - - chicken shit weasels that are too afraid to live for themselves and don’t –

how men are really left that are not assholes of abuse

how women are really left that haven’t been abused

this is just a sad shitty world thanks to losers that abuse - - - abuse your own life to shit if you want - - -but how fckin dare you take another’s life from tem to see - - - to see how special it is to be even alive

lick your own dics assholes - - - lick your own filthy dics

big deal - - so you have a dic - - a limp one – lol - -lol - - big fckin deal - - how do you think because of that that gets you to rule over me and then to abuse all women as me - - fck you and your old mans shit - - its redundant and it is over done - - blah blah - - stick your dic back in your pants and learn how to be men for once - - start using your other head  - - losers of abuse - - that is all that we need to see to see that you are not worth any time from any human’s life - - man or woman - - because man or woman you will abuse


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