To tell someone that they are worth nothing - - - and even if not in words - - - but by manipulation - - - - and then to add words on top - - - all that shit - - - and for what - - - that makes you a big powerful man? to abuse your own family - - -what about know ? still feel like a big fckin man? I hope not - - -
Two fingers up - - lol - - -!!
To feel to finally be living - - - - - - - - it is so weird - - -
And maybe you can’t never understand what I feel - - - - especially if you think you have never been not you
Do you understand? Lol - - -
If you think you have never been abuse and those that say they love you , love you - - - - - - -
I guess - - I can’t understand what you feel - - - - even though - - - I wished so much I did or could - - - to feel love - - -
That must be so wonderful - - - to be able to feel that from others
and as I am learning - - - how so wonderful it feels so finally love myself!!!!!!
Lol - - I hope that was a great thought !!!! it felt sad and wonderful at the same time !!!!!! to have hopes and dreams - - - - that is so amazing to know to have - - - and to feel as though - - maybe I can have , , , even me - - - once only a dog - - - and now human again - -
- to live to see to view and forever not of only one
Super fly kitty style !!!! lol !!!
and to start to understand that if I am starting to feel sad - - - that I can turn that around now - - - starting to see- - - different ways to see - - - that I never had for myself - - - because no one cared about me - - - but now I do - - - - and I see - - - - how an abuser takes all away from you for forever , to not ever be to not ever exist to not ever see for yourself - - - - - - - - you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
To finally to start to see that even me can love myself even though I am forever not told too - - - it feels so amazing and real !!!!!
if you remember that you should never be sad to yourself - - - maybe then you can always see - to live
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To learn that you can feel so powerful inside yourself - - - just by believing in yourself - -- in having confidence - - -self –respect - - - feeling loved - - feeling sure - - -feeling happy inside of your self honestly being happy - - seeing that you are not ever alone - - - because you have you to love you and you can now care about yourself - - - as a human - - - and not any more as a dog - - a slave from your father to others that abuse