I am the by product – lol – of your abuse you assholes can only do - - and can only do with your life - - and that is fine - - but you had no right to take mine - - - and I am pissed - - -
Because - - -only one life – only one chance one shot - - - to live and to live how you want
I know that or I feel that is right that if you are sad to you in your life - - - that maybe you better check and see before you cannot - - because I tell ya- - - now that I know - -or am starting to understand I should say - - as it is hard to learn and to learn for yourself – and for yourself - - lol - - too funny - - I hope that was funny for you too- - !!! - - - lol
Just think - - if I had a great dad and my life then would have then been all the possibilities that I have now - - - and I hope every day to see more - - - -!!!!!!! Lol - -big smile - - -kitty style !!!!lol
to live to live - - -is a whole new way to look at the world!! - - and easier to see all the shame we all bear and then not to want only be that - - -to be always more and to want always more to see and to be - - and most important - - - to explore @!++!!!!! Lol - - - to smile more every day than I am sad - - - to me then that is a good day to have!! Lol
what is really all going to matter after a 100 years after 300 - - - - but to me I think that would matter even still after a 1000 - - - - would be if we evolved - - -and could think more and to think more of ourselves and in our own brains and our own minds and our own bodies tat then make us each complete - - -to be individuals but yet to need each other - - - to evolve and to become more - - and we do that - - -by just way of thoughts - - - that’s it - -lol - - that is how we share - - - to share and to then share again - - - all the moments that make us - - - big smile - - - to feel that we haven’t even started to explore what we can each do and then together as one - - - with our collective thoughts that are of wanting to exist and to exist better with more dreams and more realizations and more theories and more discoveries - - -more of just more and of anything really - - - because to me - - any of more then is not to stay - - - to stay with only one view and isn’t even yours - - - and then to see - - - that you are more powerful than ever - - - than ever your own father and dave - - - as look at how weak they are as men - - - and couldn’t do what I am - - - and that is sharing with the whole world - - - that to be alive is worth yourself knowing that it is you that is alive!!!!!
This way this world is, is stifling our minds from us to be as thinkers as individually and to then share all our thoughts with our own family and then to the next and then to each other all around us as we all grow and become more richer than ever - - - because now answers we can have and not only still at the questions that we have had since the beginning - - -please I hope please see - - - there is more to life - - -but if you won’t change or realize - - -that if you think – and it doesn’t matter how good or how shitty you think your life is - - it is thinking that is only that it is or only that it can be or only that it will ever be - - - because that and all of that is not true and not true for you and all of us - - - but you have to want more - - but not only for yourself
Maybe that is part of it too - -
Maybe I just feel that we can do more with our minds and especially if we were all educated to learn and to share and to not have any fears of the questions that we ask because now every question asked is now a new possibility that can come true !! lol - - but to not think of only one way - - - sure does free up your mind and a lot of space - - lol - - - because to get rid of dave’s hate he had for me and of my fathers - - - - that was them talking up room in my mind of their manipulation and abuse that they did to me - - - and I have to learn how to set myself free from what they did to me - - - to learn to reverse their shame that they placed onto me - - - and to fill my mind with new and happy moments that are now all mine that I can make and make for me to see - - - -that I am so glad - - - I am getting free from their hate - - - they had no right - - - I am a human just the same
and if - - lol - - - there is reincarnation - - or whatever - - -I hope I have earned or will earn or can earn - - -a part of that to be a part of my world and every world and reality and through space and time - - lol - -and into eternity - - - lol - - did I cover all the space and time contingencies – lol - - !!!
but to realize too - - that what the world is the one that we all share and then to each of our own - - - no one can say for 100 % - - this is exactly the way the world is - - not 100 % - lol - -right - - -lol - - so then - -
-nothing, can be a 100% right - - - and yet, everything can be right
Right - - lol - - did you see it - - that double meaning stuff – so cool - - so neat - !! because everything is a possibility and then everything might not be - - but then everything too can be everything all at the same time too - - - that now is a possibility - - - - !!!!! so cool - -
If you think it does it make it real - - -
Or now a possibility !! - - so cool—or I hope so - - lol - -
Super fly kitty style !!
And what would only your hate dave and father have given me to see – nothing but only you. - not even close to what I can and with that alone - - - you never deserved me - - - not at all - - just because you can’t shine in your life - - - doesn’t give you the right to abuse others that can !!!
Because my father was a loser - - shit - - -
It’s not just getting married that that can be a mistake that you pay for the rest of your life - - - so is who you come from - - - if they abuse or not
And if they already took that knowledge away from you that you are worth something to you in your life - - assholes - - -
Who am I - - who am I now - - -