Kitty , four

no one is given their own
Time in their own Time
to see
what even IS  ,
only to view what IS to sea
then gone only to BE
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Is it for those as me to see then - -things that can 
love and be of a more -
to sea the sun shining .,
to sea lovers kissing -
Even  ., birds .,.  singing 
Or 
is it too just make believe- - 
And if so - - 
How it would be then just to tease -
To drive those as me - -  insane - - 
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To feel the warmth of a sun . , a million miles away - 
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And nothing to be able to touch ., of
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Human Dancers with moving feet
If you have never danced with your self, by your self, for your self
If you can never dance by your self-
You can never then
You have then never then - - danced
And with - your own self- to feel - -
The rhythm then - - 
of what music then - -feels
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I’m becoming real and right before my very eyes
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And hii - - not only to feel
- -to ask - to question
- -am I . ,.
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to Be From Monsters
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how they say you need antiquity proof -— how there is no such thing
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how the snake before you knows - - 
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you show all your cards - - 
when it is that you abuse - - 
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what of me - - can you say - -
what only is true.
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when a thought comes into the mind
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now that I see it
now that I know it
now I know that it exists 
\then now I know -
there are then -
more things to know
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and hate . ,.,  not once . ,, entered.
no fear then to BE.
!!
pretty kitty fly !! Lol 
i hope you see. !
expect for the abuse,
please don’t do. 
it should, matter 
to you.
LIFe ,,., and before . .,, any death.
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a thought can go from one to the next -
and how it - - never stops !! -
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for it to stop - - 
how only when my heart does.
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it is like my brain - - it won’t shut off - - 
but it is like - - wow - - that is not it -
it is just waking up !!
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how it is what I am feeling - - 
is how when you learned of the things that you can then do - -
right -
when you wre young - -
how you did get to sea - - how incredible you wre - -
how you wre told - - 
and not me -
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pretend to have friends .,., when it is that you do not have one -
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be with friends when you have real ones
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there are more things to know -
than just this -
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how one knows - - and for sure -
that one can even know -
to be sure -
hii - one knows - -
and one can be sure -
if one didn’t then know -
and now  -
knows
!!
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people are so cool !!!- -
  abusers , the fool - - 
to then Life;to be then
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to be free
only can be a bird
!!
or an angel
as to feel
+ * + 
free to feel
of myself !!
to be then able
TO LOVE
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and everything also depends 
on how you also
think about
it
!! lol !!
right !
how you can have so much fun with thought !!
and how you can only sea as to destroy them all .
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was I not cute enough 
to at least
then love
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Life; should have, more options 
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it is not about refiguring of the brain- -that you did -
oh no - - 
you cheeky mother fckers - -
  all you did -
was give me an addiction -
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at a very early age -
you should all be so ashamed.
all your lies - - and hii - -you are no prize
all your harm - -and now all is being
undone.and left only by your side.
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8 billion beings , walking around -
and no one to be seen
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all you did was give me an addiction 
and then to sea yours
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-what are all we ?? !!
because some - 
can be INCREDIBLE !!
and when .,., to seee !!
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how we are all of so many things !! - -
wonderful and not - - 
hii - - 
there is some .,. that will 
choose ., not.
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and I can see - - I have  --

WINGS  - - !! - -

to be able to fly with - -

to be able to help me with - -

to be able to guide me with - -

to be able to not feel . ,, ever alone –

, not ever again . ,

I am told !! –

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to have other than only your hate

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to have feelings of lost

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of my own thoughts

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I can change my Being  --
can you - -
I can change my Being  --
even from - - you.
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to not sea more for your self to feel
how soon
you settle
for none.
how it doesn’t matter. who. 
or
which side you are on.
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there never should have been sides. 
only thanks to fahters that destroy 
ALL and all before , and again , in Time
Forever then. 
guaranteeing.
Time to remain
STILL
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look around ,
hii.
what you. can see.
if your not too scared to.
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how now.
that is all of us.
abused and even of those not.
how we all. Are just.
scared.
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to not be;here. , well shit.
lol. Maybe your like me !! Lol
wanting to feel more than;only.what is then here.
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and also to , hii. 
 if you don’t feel the same here,to stay only as your asshole fahter made you,,,
how you then, abused till you do
or hii. Then fck off and die. 
you slogan. 
shit too.
just every thing , and about you. 
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how you do not sea. 
that is your mirror
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how do you know what is real and what is not
if you can abuse it
how the abuser seas it
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To make Things no longer beautiful
-is the abuser.
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what if
everything is just (a test)
for you
to see then -
what then is of 
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care about those you say you do
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environments can change - -

so should you !

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your mind needs to feel.YOU.

 

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why am I worth trash

and it was you

harming me