This Is My Time Now Poem
This is my time now
It is now or never!!
So what’s it gonna be ME !!
To me that means that I better get my shit together and try even harder – to not get down on myself because all what Dave and my dad did to me was so much – so much pain still - - if I have to feel it again - -
It still feels the same - - the pain I went through – and can still remember –
But it is me that is different now –
It is me seeing – that I can still care about me and remember these things now; self love; and not lose like min 3 days every time I have to think about it - -
That is what it is like for me – that is what I feel - - is so not me though- -but so needing it to be - - for me to see.
It never made sense before.
And still I am sure that it means now so much more than I can still understand because I am learning that, that to expect more now, not less – I am to expect more, for myself!!! –- because now I am!!
Might still be more - - that it is only that - - I am sure more to learn about that!!
To want to be happy - -despite everything - -
Despite everything that you even did to me –
I still rise – and I get to be ME, finally - -
To believe in myself –
Like I never could!!!!!!!
Get it !! I am starting too!!! Lol
It’s so awesome to be able to feel so good - -
And all you have to do is believe,
believe in yourself - -
That you are important too, in the large scheme of things,
not just the little!!!!