To SMILE !

I had to learn about you dave the hard way –and you knew it would break me

you will never make things right my me –

how it shows - -

you –

while I had to learn about you dave - -

I had to also learn about my dadd –

and the things he did to me –

and how too - -

he will never make things right by me –

how it seems those that are of a life – but are only deathe –

can live

here.

while I had to learn about you dave and my dad - -

I also –

got to learn

about me!

and how it is - -

you will never see me or things that are then of me! –

how you can only see as to abuse –

how you –

stuck then –

here. , .

as to how I

would have been.

you only see me as to abuse – you cannot see me no other way –

who then – does not then –

view

it seems here – the mind is a beautiful thing to

waste

and you knew it would break me ., because .,

I am not as you –

- and if I was - -your abuse would then have been done and unto me ., how you keep those as me blind - -so you can abuse –

how sick is

you.

instead of never seeing of a more to be –

how you only think what you do –

is true - -for you –

how you know –

was not for me –

- -

and it’s funny - -I panicked –

as to how –

I then saw you –

I was so worried that nobody else did –

that I wanted to protect then , others from being what is me –

but all of you know already –

it is those as me - -to never to see –

how come we are always ., the victims –

but how we do not feel as that –

inside –

how we do not see as to even be a victim –

how –

that is the process., the steps I also had to learn –

that I was a victim –

that was incredibly hard for my brain to want to see –

because –

that is when you see –

to think –

you are worthless –

and that too –

you never thought you were –

because how you always jumped back into life !! –

how even if something got me down ., and how the horror you know is my life –

how it was really me - -

wanting to

smile