Where Am I ? Is it STILL? Or BEcoming New.

when you sing a song

when you hear a song sung- -

by the singer that sung the song –

 -

who’s voice do you hear –

when you replay the song

as thoughts ,., now belonging . ,. to you--

 is it the artist  –

  or now ., you.

how it should always be the artist- -

 singing the song that it writes - -

unless it is you and the artist as one –

create now –

of your own songs that will fill your own head –

 -

with now a rythme –

  -

that now-

belongs to you!!

 

be the coolest !!! - -to your self !!

right !!! –

who in the fck else are you trying to impress- lol !! –

right !! –

and especially here . ,.  \

how there is no one

.only fear.

 

to make us only believe that is the only reasons we should be thinking of as to our own existence – and especially when you fcks don’t about us and in the first place - -

and in by seeing what is of you - -

how you nevr - -did once .,  even care ., . about me .,  no second thought I got –

 -

as to –

  you –

thinking even . ,

should you - 

should you abuse me more that you know – I already am . , and you can seee - -all my pain.

how you only saw me as  - -who cares - -

-

just trash , garbage - -and it is like;;;;;; fck you -- 

you dare to even say that about your fckn victims yet – you cheeky mthr fckers- -

 you know why I am ., with my addiction .,  because you know - -

my fahter - - -made . , .

-

and you know –

because you are after – [--

 those - -

-

how you know –

it will be okay to destroy –

 how you know –

because no one loved , loves me ., 

to ,, just even .,  protect me and hii - -from you –

 -  and I couldn’t sea ,. , not even that. I knew nothing of you .,  to even fear of.

how all the safe guards you have all in place –

how they , work – so well- -

 how many women treated as garbage because –

you knew –

what addictions - - mean.

-and if you raise a child . , just right - -

you can fck with her - - for the rest of her life.

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you abused all of my life , , you abused my childrens’ lives from abusing my life –

 -

 your just pieces of fckn shit- -

 - 

 

all this “power”hocus pocus. – and you used it to get - -a one view - -

of fucking. ..

. how it doesn’t matter to  ., ., then what.

-

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for you to harm me knowingly and I am your child -- 

for you to harm my brothers and sisters - - how you harm ., but in different ways - -

but you harm each of us to not sea - -

we should have been  -- protecting - - us all from him . .

--

there was a reason why I was the black sheep –

there was a reason why my sister was daddy’s little girl

there was a reason - -

why  -

a father would even and in the first place ., 

how that is so wrong in so many ways-

 -

 even to put down one child to another –

how that is just unheard of - -  -

 - how it is –

right –

because it is so fckn messed up –

 -

 I could never sea that before -- 

but how , I could always feel it , ., 

.

it was so confusing ., ,.

to understand ., , when things that they would do . ,.

how I couldn’t put the pieces together –

 - 

because how I knew nothing . ,.

of my environment –

 -

 to even worry about ,., to even know ., to nevermind ., try to even fckn –

 -

understand

 

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and all of this for what –

for lame sex., .

and hii – you - -

the lame duck. On the tree  

again .,

how you just hate even; any and all

and how for it to only be. 
yours. First. 
-

you choose to harm.all your years are years of awards.mine, tears.from your fears. 
because it was you , to fear me. 
- or how you would have asked more  - of what then I could feel , and for  

and when i was a child  

how that is what , the parent is supposed to do  

ask the child  what does it seee first  before any of your shit  

to never for sure  then know  why